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I EXIST FOR ME

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Hello to the wonderful people out there! I have found some inspiration today that I want to both work with through writing this blog - and share with as many people as possible! I found the e-course, I EXIST FOR ME, by feminist and body activist, Jessi Kneeland, and read the posts on Facebook and Instagram where she honestly and beautifully captured the many parts of her life in which she has been existing for others - instead of herself. Realizing how badly I needed to do the same, I immediately took this oath to publicly reclaim myself, my life, and my body as existing only for myself: "My feelings, needs, and desires are valid. I do not have to earn my worth, or control how other people perceive me. I will no longer center the feelings, needs, desires, experiences, or expectations of others: I am the center of my own story. I am not here to be looked at, or to make other people comfortable. I exist for me.” The following points are the core of this course: You...

Dealing with objectification - "Have you seen your thighs"?

My biggest problem has been self-objectification - not objectification, at least when my body is concerned. One of the most surprising things I noticed when I started being more aware of what is going on in my head around my negative thoughts about my body and my looks was that, despite what I really thought, I had NOT been body-shamed very much. At least not directly. I look at my fat fellow body activists, like the fantastic Victoria Welsby (have you seen her TED talk? It's called "I am fat" and it is AMAZING - here is the link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w_Ml3yr32bU) with sheer awe at how they are dealing with OTHER people objectifying and body-shaming them. You GO girls! That is power! Either way, when I looked at my life, I haven't been body-shamed much. 94 percent of all girls have been fat -or body-shamed, so my case isn't unique. I always thought I had been really put down, but then I realized that my own worst enemy was MYSELF: Yes, sure, the occ...

Nude on the beach

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Hello everyone out there! I wrote about how I have missed being able to go to the beach because of a crippling fear of being seen (all the imperfections out in the open, no thanks!) in my blog about my first time as a croquix-model here: https://christinabrockmand.blogspot.com/2018/06/the-little-croquis-mermaid.html Me on Omø in 1994 Fear of judgement has held me back from doing the thing I used to love/do most as a child - even more so than drawing! I realize now that I haven't yet made a post about my art, but until I do, you can find me on Instagram as happychristinah or visit my beautiful portfolio: christinabrockmand.myportfolio,com. Back to the subject ... Last Sunday, this mermaid finally got her legs! And even though it was a rather different experience than expected, it was truly healing - in an unexpected way! I didn't set out this time to do anything to write a blog about - I didn't even know I was going to the beach. Just in case, though, I had pac...

What is Beauty?

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What is beauty? I decided write this blog to explore and challenge our view of beauty. I will start off by saying, that I have watched many amazing TED talks addressing the massive issues with body image that we are all facing in our culture today. These talks in general focus on how to shift your perspective from obsessing about weight and appearance to the things that actually matter. I am inspired and in awe of these talks, but in every single one, I always find a quote that confirms one thing th at I don’t agree with: That the perfect body or ideal appearance exists. And is more beautiful – and thus, better - than others. That there are parts of us that are unflattering because they don’t live up to the standards that society has set for us. And that is where I want to take it further, because I don’t agree . Photo: Ideal Beauty over Time I know this is a difficult subject.  I think it is difficult to really ” get ” because we’re...

Reflections of a nude model - seeing is loving

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Hello out there! This blog is about my experiences with nude photography as a means to self-healing, and what posing nude has taught me in general.  I n June 2018, I met up with my good friend, photographer Astrid Ubaghs, whom I met in 2015 at Japanese class. So much has happened since that awkward day when we met. We could instantly feel a deep connection (and as we both believe in reincarnation, we think this has to do with past life connections – actually, during a session, we have been told that we have spent a life together as male lovers in late 1800th century Tokyo! but that is another blog entirely), while at the same time feeling quite reserved towards each other. Those feelings faded over time as we got to know each other, and I soon realized that Astrid was a very creative and unique individual, and not too unlike myself in many ways. We started being creative together. I passed on some knowledge about drawing and painting, and Astrid started taking her photograph...